If I knew

In September of 1988 my mom died. She had battled diabetes since childhood. She was a formative woman. 5'3 and maybe 110lbs dripping wet. She was an incredible woman. The day she died, she was watching my son. I had the opportunity to go home during the two hour break between my two jobs but I decided to stay at the restaurant of one of my jobs and study for a test. I regret that. She slipped into a coma while watching Justin. She died that night.

This poem that Sireina sent me reminds me, we never know when our loved ones will leave us. Cherish them and never leave your husband, sister, child on an angry note. Always tell them you love them. You may not ever get to tell them again.

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right.

There will always be another day to say "I love you," And certainly there's another chance to say our

"Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all! I get, I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike, And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?

For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day, That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear, Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."

And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today