So What?

So I didn't get the job. I have once again resigned myself to admissions. I will put on the smile, put on the battle paint and suck it up. Please understand, I love this company, I adore the people I work with and yes I LIKE my boss even on her bitchy days, but NOT to do this job was soooooo alluring.

Oh well. Was not to be. So, I will once again focus on helping change people's stars through education. Help them become more than there currently are. I will! Yes, I will.

Damn, 9:00 appointment didn't show up. How the hell I am suppose to change their stars if they won't give me the chance. I swear it is like Alaska in summer!!

So much for wanting a change...

It is now 3:52 and I did NOT get the job. Not because I wasn't qualified, not because Lila didn't like me, ONLY because Ray, the part owner, doesn't believe that an HR position is really necessary.

He thinks just hire a clerical person. You don't need some one w/ extensive employment knowledge. Who cares if you violate a hundred and one labor laws. What FLMA? What is IIPP? Hell we don't need no stinkin HR.

He is an idiot. But I knew that going in. Still... I am so bummed.

Smile, continue on the hamster wheel, continue believing in liars, thieves, and flakes.

I HATE MY LIFE!!!

3:23 AND STILL WAITING!!

I sent an e-mail. Just sort and sweet. It said ... "any news?" NOTHING!! Does that mean something? Something bad? Something good? What!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, I am a big girl. I can wait. I CAN WAIT. I CAN WAIT!!!!

NO I CAN"T!!!

Oh hell. No choice!

And so I WAIT!!!

I HATE waiting. I am a very impatient person. I just want to know. For the love of GOD, YES or NO!!!

What do they need to think over. I am perfect for the job.

I know the school! I know HR! Damn it I am very good. At least that is what I believe. Oh, the agony.

Waiting SUCKS!!!!!!

OHT HE SUSPENSE

The interview went well. And hell,why should it not? I am bright, I know HR and more importantly, they know me. I wasn't really sure what the "interview" was going to entail. I went over to thier house. Needless to say it was QUITE informal. I still was a bit nervous. I want the job. I am pretty sure I can do the job. OH, and I fucked up. Not about my knowledge and how fabulous I am. I can sell the hell out of myself. No, I screwed up when it came to the salary. Because I CAN NOT LIE. So, when I was asked how much I was at right now, I said blah blah w/ OT. Hmmm, She said, I am not sure we can match that. I KNOW they can match that!! They can exceed that!! AAARRRGGG!! I am just not good at asking for money.

OH Well...

Now we wait.